As I hung up the phone to Sam I became overwhelmed with emotion, I started shaking and burst into tears at even the thought of putting my name forward, for not only a role in ministry but back in Sydney where Claire and I closed the door only 2.5 years prior.
What was it about that question that brought me so unstuck? Well, let’s start with the obvious answers… moving to the most expensive city in the world, we just purchased a home, we both had great jobs, and family was close.
The answer: I was afraid to make a call – I was afraid of stepping out.
Throughout this journey that initial question in various forms continues to play out in my mind. “Am I good enough?”, “Am I experienced enough?”, “Why would anyone listen to me?”.
Galatians 1:10 says “Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God?”
It’s not easy but it’s worth it. I want to be known as the guy that even in the face of fear, stepped out and put my name forward – because I want to chase relationship with God no matter what it takes.
I encourage you this week when faced with the tough questions to ask yourself: “Who I am trying to please here?”. Am I chasing approval of man or of God? Am I trusting God with this or am I holding on to comfort and familiarity?